Ok I have given you advance warning. If you don't want to hear all about "poor pitiful me" stop reading now and come back when I have something better to post.
My Great Aunt N has been in a nursing home for a couple of years. I told you that we went to visit her the other week remember? Got a call yesterday that she was taken to the hospital and it didn't look like she was going to make it through the night. Dad and I rushed to the hospital to see her. I was told she could not hear us but I thought maybe she could. So I rattled on about stuff and cats (she loved cats) and I know she heard me. I could tell by the way she wrinkled her forehead and started grunting. We left at 8:00 PM. Got a phone call this morning telling us she passed last night around 8:30 PM -- right after we left. She had left all her stuff (except maybe some money somewhere) to me so Dad and I went to the nursing home to get everything. She will be buried Monday afternoon.
The poor pitiful me stuff? In the almost 5 years that I have been journaling here in AOL J-land the following has happened:
I had to put 3 cats and a pet rabbit to sleep.
A cousin committed suicide.
My Aunt had a stroke and I had to get her into a nursing home, see that all these legal things were taken care of (as I was made her power of attorney). When she died I planned the funeral and stuff.
Mom fell and fractured her hip and had to have surgery. When she had her surgery I believe is when she had the first of a few "mini" strokes.
I have my tonsils out. It messes up my system somehow and I go to the ER and get admitted to the psych unit for 4 days while they adjust my meds.
Forgot: found out I have diabetes
Something isn't right about mom so we call 911. First time every any of us went by ambulance. The ER says she has phemonia and admits her. Somehow someway more tests are run and we find out she has lung cancer and will soon die.
With mom home in a hospital bed Dad gets sick. Call to his doctor results in me calling 911 again. Dad is off to the hospital and I am left with mom. She can't be left alone so I have to get one of Dad's friends to take him stuff and to get him when he is released a few days later.
About 2 weeks before mom dies and old neighbor of mine and a good friend of my dads dies unexpectedly.
Less than 2 months from finding out mom has cancer she passed. Again I am the one that has to plan a funeral and do all the legal stuff.
I finally believe I have gotten my Aunt's house sold (been on the market since her death 3 years ago). Run into some legal problems I have to get taken care of. Now the buyer is having financing problems and we'll close about a month later than expected. Hopefully.
My dad's next door neighbor dies and was buried just yesterday.
Great Aunt Nancy dies. I really don't think I can handle going to another funeral right now.
Dad just called me. He had some chest pain last week -- that he didn't tell me about -- and has had more today. Says he is ok and won't go to the hospital.
If something happens to my dad I will just die. This is all getting way too much for me to handle.
Ok I KNOW that I am lucky. There are others having a way worse time than me. People that have lost more than me.
But right now I am having a pity party. My Aunt Betty (whom I called earlier today) said it was ok. I could have a pity party -- but only for about 10 minutes. I think my 10minutes are up.
Kathy
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