Hello Again

This little hamster has nothing to do with anything.  I just thought it was cute.

Went by mom's grave today.  There was this little butterfly flying all over and around it.  Of course I know it was just a butterfly and it just happened to be there.......but I would like to think it was some kind of sign.  Silly me.

Not much of anything going on around here.  Years back I used to scrapbook (and I really want to get back into it) and make cards but some how I stopped doing it.  Anyway I have tons of scrapbooking stuff all over my house so I have been trying to get everything in one place and packed up all nice and neat.  My house will look some cleaner and if I do decide to start back at least everything will be in one place.

Slowly but surely I am trying to clean my clutter and get rid of things I don't need.  I also am still slowly going through mom's things at dad's house.  Some days it is easy going other days I just can't get rid of any of her things.

Looks like a storm coming up so I had better get off line.

Take care,

Kathy

 

Tags: mom's grave, scrapbooking, clutter, getting rid of stuff

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Another hot summer day here in North Carolina.  It has been so long since I added any graphics to my journal that I can't believe how much editing and adding to journals has changed!  And if you compare it to the begining of J-land (about 5 years ago) it has REALLY seen improvement.

The deal still may go through with selling my aunt's house.  I sure hope so.  It is the last (I hope the last) legal thing left of my aunt's stuff (and therefore my mom's stuff). 

I have been buying lots of PC games.  I have more than I can play (in years probably), but I am addicted to the buying I guess.  Depression brings out the shopper in me.  When mom was sick I spent over $400 at amazon.com.  Whew!  I had to take money out of my savings account to pay off Visa.

I am doing better about spending money.  This has happened before (though I haven't used my credit card like this before) so I know it will pass.

I am struggling to remember to test my blood everyday.  Something as a diabetic I need to be doing!  I was doing twice a day but a few months back the doctor said I could do it once a day.  I was doing pretty good and the sicker mom got and when she passed blood testing was the furtherest thing from my mind.

Tags: journal editing, spending money, pc games, diabetic, blood testing,

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A New Start

I don't really understand why but I have felt like the time has come to close my other journal and start a new one.  Maybe it has to do with mom passing, maybe its something else.  I just don't know.  So unless something changes this is my new place.

Under the title of my journal I put a quote that I recently came across.  My cats have a calming effect on me (except when Maggie is hungry :) ) I would love to be able to relax the way they do.  To not (or so it seems) a worry in the world.  To know that someone loves me and will take care of me.

I am going through another low point in my continuing saga of being depressed.  Yeah I have a shrink and have been clinically depressed for years.  I will survive.  I will shuffle along until better days come my way.

I do feel that something has changed in me.  I don't feel like I am the same person I was a year ago.

I will get links up in the side columns sometime.

Kathy

Tags: new journal, closing old journal, depression, mom died, cats