A new name and a new place

I have decided that if I must start over then I should start with a new name.  Well it isn't a totally new name I have used it on MSN some.

I will now be.......drumroll please....... manickathy  my new email will be manickathy@gmail.com and my new "street" address will be:  http://manickathy.blogspot.com/  The name of my new blog will be: A Field of Daisies.

Guess that's it?  Spread the word. 

I am trying to find everyone and add their feed to my google reader thingy.

So sad......

Tags: moving, blogger, A Field of Daisies, manickathy, new everything

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Moving? Saving the old?

I guess I shouldn't be shocked that AOL is closing out our blogs.  I will find a new place and let everyone know.

In the meantime........what's the best way to save my old journal?  There is a lot of stuff in there I want to keep. HELP.

Always remember me at onestrangecat@aol.com and if worse comes to worse I am also at kathylovescats@gmail.com (although that one might change in the future.)

Kathy

 

 

It's Monday. Again.

It's that time of year that we get wacky weather here.  We had days and days of rain and wind.  It was from a storm (Kyle?) that was hitting the NC coastline.  It was also chilly.  Now the temps are back up and the AC back on.

As I tried to log onto AOL today I kept getting an error message.  I had to hunt and dig for an old AOL CD so I could re-install it.  Gesh.  It has been quite a while since I had to do that.

I'm new over at twitter.com.  I use the name manickathy over there.

Fall TV season is starting.  Still nothing great.  Oh I do (or did last season) like Pushing Daisies, Chuck, and I might like this new show The Mentalist (on CBS).

Dad goes this Wednesday night for his sleep test.  After that I might make him go back to his regular doctor again.  I don't like his breathing.  No silly, I like that he IS breathing.  He sounds like he is breathing really hard at times.

As you probably know I am a worrier.  Always have been and will probably always will be.   For that reason I hope you will understand that I don't (can't) talk about the way the USA economy seems to falling apart, banks not exactly failing but needing bailing out.  My "worry" part can take these topics and run for days on how bad it can/will get.  We are talking nightmare city folks.

I will be ok.  I will plug along like always.  I wish that I had a friend here in town to lean on.  I wish my mom was still alive. 

Ok, pity party over.

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great news!

More entries over there:   Forever Forward  Hope you are enjoying them.  I get more forwarded email than I post (some just aren't all that great) and I am trying to empty out the mail box but I still have more I want to share with everyone.

Great news!  While the doctor told me in December 2007 that I had diabetes I think I was more on the borderline.  Why?  From looking at my newest blood test and thinking back.  The blood test AC1 (I think that's it) is supposed to be 7.0 or less.  In December I was 6.7, sometime after mom passed I was 6.2.  The test this past week came back as 5.7.  WHOO HOO  That is a whole point drop in less than a year.  And considering how this year has been (my eating crazy with mom sick and passing, not exercising) that is unbelievable!  I guess I have been sticking to my diet better than I thought I was.

Can you believe it is practically fall?  Went outside this morning and it was almost chilly!  Leaves have been falling.  I don't mind fall.  Actually I like chilly weather better than hot.  I stocked up on some soups as soup sounds good when there is a chill in the air.

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Forever Forward

Three new entries over there: Forever Forward  Remember that is my journal to share all that forwarded mail I get.  I put it at Forever Forward to keep from forwarding on to you -- cutting back on all that email you have just sitting there waiting to be read.  LOL

Kathy

 

Really stupid tv

I -- as much as the next person -- like some stupid tv every so often.  I will admit to watching some pretty lame "reality" shows to see what they are about.  I love shows like Bravo's "Project Runway" and "Top Design".

BUT....CMT (country music television) has really came up with something so, so.....well I can't think of the word for it.  It is called "Outsiders Inn".  It is a loosely scripted reality show?  And it stars  -- are you ready for this? --  Maureen McCormick (Marsha from the Brady Bunch), Bobby Brown (singer that was married to Whitney Houston)  and Carnie Wilson (singer and daughter of one the beach boys.)  Who thought of putting those 3 together on one show was (is) crazy!  To read more about it and if you are brave enough to watch some snipits of the show go here:  CMT.com : Shows : Outsiders Inn : Main Page  And if you don't know who Maureen, Bobby and Carnie are you can read more about them here: CMT.com : Shows : Outsiders Inn : Characters.

And if you just love rednecks then you'll want to check out: CMT.com : Shows : CMT's Biggest Redneck Wedding Ever : Main Page 

Gesh, I knew there was a reason I didn't watch CMT!  Oh but what you will find when flipping channels!  LOL

 

 

Tags: CMT, Outsiders Inn, rednecks, reneck weddings, reality tv

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Never Forget

I'm still here.....still chasing the wind....

It is so hard to believe that it is September already.  It feel like summer crawled by and at other times it seems like it flew by.

Things that happened this summer that I don't think I wrote about.  Lets see.......

I have always hated the faucet in my bathroom so I bought a new one and dad was going to install it for me.  The drain was always getting clogged so I asked dad to take the trap off and clean it out good when he changed out the faucet.  The pipe came apart!  And not where it is supposed to come apart.  Old, bad pipes I guess.  Long story short I had to call a plumber in to change pipes so I went ahead and got a new sink and cabinet while I was spending money.  Plumber wasn't cheap but I love my new sink and faucet and now there is room in the cabinet store toilet paper in the bathroom!

After paying off my house there was some money left and dad wanted me to get another car so he ponied up the difference so I could get a new car.  WOW  I feel guilty about it though.  The money came to me from selling my aunt's house which I wouldn't have had if she hadn't died.  The house sold right after mom died so here I am getting all this great stuff done and she isn't here.  It seems wrong somehow to have stuff and not to have the people responsible for it here.

Maggie -- my cat -- had been driving me crazy so I took her to the vet.  She was running a little temp so he gave me medicine.  Thank goodness it wasn't a pill!  I will give her credit though the longer I give her the medicine the more she tries to cooperate with me.  She tries.  But she is a cat and they just don't like having anything shoved into their mouth!

I have tried to get back into reading all the journals I used to but quite frankly I just don't have the interest in things like I used to do.  I don't eat the same foods, watch the same tv shows, and I haven't read a book in ages.  Hoping I will snap out of it sometime soon.

Oh, I did start back (well sort of) to church.  The one I used to go to until some idiot acted like the true @#$@ I guess he really was and people left the church and even the pastor moved on.  When mom died this lady that goes there called me and I have started going to a morning Bible study.  Right now they are doing this wonderful study of Ecclesiastes.

Guess that's it for now.  I will try to do better about reading/commenting on journals.  Forgive me if it takes a while.

Tell the people you love that you love them.  They NEED to hear it NOW not later.

 

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Just something stupid

These guys are crazy.  I got this off YouTube but there is an entire site here:  The Alka-Seltzer Great American Road Trip / Home  or go to:  YouTube - RhettandLink's Channel  If you are a southerner check out their BarBQue song!  LOL

 

5 years in J-land

I haven't been visiting around J-land much lately and I am really sorry about that.  I do know that it is around the 5th year for J-land.  Can you believe it?  Five years?  Where did the time go? 

I bought my first computer right around the time AOL roled out J-land.  My first journal entry was on September 2, 2003.  I have been through a lot since then and so has J-land.  We have made friends and lost some (I still think of you Pamela  -- his1desire).  I have cried on some shoulders and tried to be there for others to cry on my shoulder.  We have been with each other through all the good stuff also.

Who would have thought that a decision to start a journal 5 years ago would have gotten me here today?  It has been a great 5 years (although I realize I have basically been MIA for the past year).  I hope we have many, many more together.

Kathy

 

Tags: aol journals, 5 year anniversary, j-land

My dad -- part 2

I called my Aunt Betty and she agreed I should talk to my dad's doctor.  So I called him.  The doctor thought dad had trouble sleeping, I explained the trouble wasn't that he couldn't sleep but that ALL he was doing was sleeping.

The doctor and I talked a little and he said he would talk to my dad about upping his meds.  Sure enough he called dad and called in a new prescription for dad.  The doctor said it could take up to a week to see a difference and for me to keep in touch with him.

So right now I feel better about things.  And I am thrilled that my dad didn't get mad at me for calling his doctor.

Kathy

 

 

My Dad

I know everyone is sick of me and my life woes.....But I am really worried about my dad.  All he wants to do is sleep.  The doctor had put him on an antidepressant a little while back -- and he wasn't sleeping so much then, he was crying all the time.  I made dad call the doctor and he went to see him yesterday.  I guess I should have went in with him to see the doctor but I didn't.  The doctor did nothing but took some blood. 

I know that depression can cause a person to want to sleep all the time (been there done that), of course something else could be wrong.  Dad goes back to the doctor in a couple of weeks. 

I don't know if it's ok for him to stay like he is until then.  I called dad's sister -- my Aunt Betty -- she suggested I call and talk to the doctor myself.  I told dad this and he says he is ok, he's just tired that he will get out of bed, that he has nothing to be depressed about (yeah right) and he tells me I can do whatever I want to do.

Great.  Ball back in my court again.  So I guess I will call the doctor.  I'm not sure if he will talk to me but I guess it is worth a try.

Kathy

 

Tags: dad, depression, sleeping, worried

Just when you feel really sorry for yourself.......

.......someone sends a link to check out.........another religious one?.......sort of but not really.......check it out.....this guy has such a great attitude about life......

Nick's testmoney - ritahsiaVideo List

More sad news

I really don't know why God decided this year would be a great year to throw as much sadness on me and my family as he could.  Really.  For those that have been reading me from the beginning you know that I used to be a happy upbeat person but this last year, year and a half everything seems to have gone down hill.

Got a call late yesterday evening.  My Aunt M had been taken to the hospital.  Several calls later we find out she had a massive stroke, bleeding in the brain, and her brain was swelling.  Then we hear she is on life support.  (She is a couple hours away from where we are).  Then this morning we get the call, she died around 6 AM.

Aunt M was my dad's oldest sister (he is the youngest of 13) and she practically raised him.  In fact he called her mom more than he did by her given name.  (Dad's real mother died when he was around 4 years old).

Aunt M's funeral will be this coming Saturday near her home at the coast.  That is about a 6 hour from here.  Dad will be driving down by himself (we both have pets so I will stay to take care of them) and I worry about him going that far alone.  He knows I'm worried and said it is making him feel bad.  Gee I don't want to do that.  I want him to go to his sister's funeral, but worrying is what I do.

Aunt M was in her early 80's and while we weren't expecting her to die this way we knew her health wasn't great and that it was only a matter of time.

Aunt M you will truly be missed.  You were so wise and always knew what to say and when to say it.

Kathy

Tags: death, aunt dies, funeral,

Surprisingly a true forwarded email!

I copied and posted the email over here:  Earn your desk?  Great story.  I even give the snopes.com link that says it is true.

Some great things have happened for me these past few days.  My Aunt E's house finally sold!  No more being put off or lawyers doing their thing.  We (well Dad) got the check for the house Wednesday afternoon.  Friday morning we went to the bank to get a certified check to take to the bank that held my mortgage.  And Dad PAID MY MORTGAGE OFF!!!!!!!!!!!  WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is something my mom had been waiting and hoping for.  I wish she was here to see it. 

Kathy

Tags: true fowarded email, exchange desk, mom, house sold, house paid for

A Stolen Meme.......

I got this from Russ over at Inner and Outer Demons, who got it from someone and they got it from whomever.......

If you came to my house… I would probably invite you in.  But you would be very lucky, I don't ususally let people in.  My house is my safe little cave. 

I’d probably feed you:  I'm a lousy cook.  Let's order in some pizza ok?

And offer you this to drink:  water, milk, or diet mt dew

I’d undoubtedly ask if you’d read:  Bentley Little, Stephen King, Joan Hess, etc...

I’d want to play this music for you: I'm going through a phase right now.  I like Michael Buble he reminds me the old rat pack.

 

I’d want to tell you about: my mom.  things i would like to do to my house.

I’d probably suggest a game of: find the cats......

I would definitely show off:  my scrapbooks, the little mice whatnot that mom gave me for christmas, some of my mom's paintings, the painting Aunt L did for me.

I might get on the computer and show you: Metal and Magic, CAVEMAN'S CRIB (only because it is so stupid), The official WebSite of Jim Warren, PostSecret

If it was a long enough visit, we might watch: Joy Ride, Memento, or Project Runway. 

WARNING: Major Pity Party In Progress

Ok I have given you advance warning.  If you don't want to hear all about "poor pitiful me" stop reading now and come back when I have something better to post.

My Great Aunt N has been in a nursing home for a couple of years.  I told you that we went to visit her the other week remember?  Got a call yesterday that she was taken to the hospital and it didn't look like she was going to make it through the night.  Dad and I rushed to the hospital to see her.  I was told she could not hear us but I thought maybe she could.  So I rattled on about stuff and cats (she loved cats) and I know she heard me.  I could tell by the way she wrinkled her forehead and started grunting.  We left at 8:00 PM.  Got a phone call this morning telling us she passed last night around 8:30 PM -- right after we left.  She had left all her stuff (except maybe some money somewhere) to me so Dad and I went to the nursing home to get everything.  She will be buried Monday afternoon.

The poor pitiful me stuff?  In the almost 5 years that I have been journaling here in AOL J-land the following has happened:

I had to put 3 cats and a pet rabbit to sleep.

A cousin committed suicide.

My Aunt had a stroke and I had to get her into a nursing home, see that all these legal things were taken care of (as I was made her power of attorney).  When she died I planned the funeral and stuff.

Mom fell and fractured her hip and had to have surgery.  When she had her surgery I believe is when she had the first of a few "mini" strokes.

I have my tonsils out.  It messes up my system somehow and I go to the ER and get admitted to the psych unit for 4 days while they adjust my meds.

Forgot: found out I have diabetes

Something isn't right about mom so we call 911.  First time every any of us went by ambulance.  The ER says she has phemonia and admits her.  Somehow someway more tests are run and we find out she has lung cancer and will soon die.

With mom home in a hospital bed Dad gets sick.  Call to his doctor results in me calling 911 again.  Dad is off to the hospital and I am left with mom.  She can't be left alone so I have to get one of Dad's friends to take him stuff and to get him when he is released a few days later.

About 2 weeks before mom dies and old neighbor of mine and a good friend of my dads dies unexpectedly.

Less than 2 months from finding out mom has cancer she passed.  Again I am the one that has to plan a funeral and do all the legal stuff.

I finally believe I have gotten my Aunt's house sold (been on the market since her death 3 years ago).  Run into some legal problems I have to get taken care of.  Now the buyer is having financing problems and we'll close about a month later than expected.  Hopefully.

My dad's next door neighbor dies and was buried just yesterday.

Great Aunt Nancy dies.  I really don't think I can handle going to another funeral right now.

Dad just called me.  He had some chest pain last week -- that he didn't tell me about  -- and has had more today.  Says he is ok and won't go to the hospital.

If something happens to my dad I will just die.  This is all getting way too much for me to handle.

Ok I KNOW that I am lucky.  There are others having a way worse time than me.  People that have lost more than me.

But right now I am having a pity party.  My Aunt Betty (whom I called earlier today) said it was ok.  I could have a pity party -- but only for about 10 minutes.  I think my 10minutes are up.

Kathy

Tags: great aunt dies, pity party, deaths in family

It's Wednesday!

Nothing going on here. 

I feel lousy.  Monday night I started with a sore throat.  Yesterday I was tired and just felt yucky.  Today it is confirmed (by me, myself and I).  I have a bad cold. 

Not to be confused with a good cold.  Why do we say we have a bad cold?  Aren't they are all bad?  Isn't a cold just a cold?

This blog has some cool links in this entry: 

ShoeboxBlog: Links That Amuse Us

 

If you watch the "What the hell is he talking about?"  leave a me a comment.  It is so funny.  I actually think I hear him sing those words!  LOL

 

My shrink upped my meds this past Monday.  I'm doing ok, but......  Doc says I could be a little more depressed than usual but that I sound like I am going through the grieving stages from mom dying.  I asked him how long would it last.  His answer was "longer than what people say".  LOL  Is that supposed to make me feel better?  Or is he talking from experience?  Oh well.......

 

Take care.  A few new entries over here: Forever Forward.

 

Kathy

Tags: sick, bad cold, good cold, links that amuse

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I was bored......

......so I did a little web surfing........

No real point to any of these.  Just so cute!  I tried to post the video's here (they are really -- less than a minute each) but it wouldn't work for me.

Enjoy

Gizmo - Pet Videos

My Crazy Cat - Pet Videos

Funny Cats Dancing Mix - Pet Videos

Hungover Cat - Pet Videos

Cat And Parrot - Pet Videos  if I only had the patience this cat has.....

this one is kind of crude, but funny.....

The Farting Cat From Date Movie - Pet Videos

Kathy

 

Tags: links cat videos, cute cats

Happy Friday!

Like the lion above I have been in front of a fan most of the day.  It hasn't been all that hot here I just like having the fan blowing on me.  I'm kinda strange.  You don't have to tell me! 

Not much of anything going on around here.  Which is pretty much how every day/week/month/year seems to be.  I did get a reminder in the mail today that I have an appointment next month to get my teeth cleaned.  Can hardly wait.........

I have a ton of DVD's, most I have never watched, so I decided to put them in alphabetical order.  Or maybe I should do it by genre?  Anyway I have been taking little snippets of time and writing down all the titles, next step is to type them into the computer and have it put the list in alphabetical order.  Not a HUGE job but not a really small one either.  I will let you know if I finish this project.

My cats really use their cat "trees" so much so I am thinking that they will soon have to be replaced.  Those things are expensive so I will have to do it in stages.  I have seen some really cool cat furniture in catalogs but the prices on some of them is just plain crazy.  But they would look so good in my living room!  :)

I found the siggy below on my computer.  I have some really weird ones that I have picked up along the way.  This little mousey looks like he has a stud in his tongue.  LOL  A punk mouse!

Guess that's all for now.  Take care.

Kathy

 

Tags: DVD's, cat trees, cat furniture, nothing, fans

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It's all about TV

When I was little I remember watching the tv show One Step Beyond (and there is some here about it: Alcoa Presents: One Step Beyond - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia)  I loved that show and could never figure out why it hasn't been in re-runs on like the Sci Fi channel or somewhere. 

Anyways I was at Wal-Mart looking through their $5.00 bin of DVD"s and came across a DVD (well there are like 4 DVD's in one case) of One Step Beyond!  I grabbed it and was practically jumping up and down.  It has 50 episodes!

So One Step Beyond was a show about real unexplainable things that have happened.  If you ever find it get it.   You will love it.

The next thing I want to mention is a new show on NBC.  On Thursday nights (at 10 pm) they have this show Fear Itself.  If you are into being scared you have to watch it!  You may think you have it figured out but trust me you won't see the ending coming.  It is a totally different show each with.  Different actors different writers/directors. You can check out full length episodes at their web site (the link is above).

Tags: tv shows, One Step Beyond, Fear Itself

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Bored? Nothing to do? Then check these out....

I don't think I have posted any links entries in a while.  So here are some from my little notebook.  Use your own care and judgement when viewing or shopping from any of these sites.  I have only glanced at them myself so I can't give any recommendations or warnings.

The list is longer than I thought......oh well....

snopes.com: Robert F. Kennedy's 40-Year Prediction

Al Dente: Almost (In)Edible Photo: Krispy Kreme Bacon Cheeseburgers stole link from Russ

Designer Handbags, Clothes, Designer Shoes and Louis Vuitton at eLUXURY oh to wish....

and while you are wishing.....Juicy Couture, Seven Jeans, and More - FREE SHIPPING - shopbop.com

more shopping:  SeenON! - Celebrity Fashion - Products and Merchandise Seen on TV and Films

Birds & Blooms Magazine: Flowers, Birds, Hummingbirds & Butterflies Birds and Blooms Magazine  love this magazine, site has free wallpaper!

Unedited. Unfiltered. News. iReport.com 

Electronics Recycling Services CD Recycling Services Computer Electronics Recycling Services

do you really want to know? Cost of Living 1st Quarter 2008 by state

Radio-Locator

USA Media: USA Radio Stations, AM/FM, USA Media Online

Real Life 101

BeyondMissing - Welcome!

Welcome to The Tell Us More Network.

DepressionIsReal.org. Depression Is Real Coalition.

We Can Solve It

Custom Toilet Paper  what an idea......

Accidental Mysteries

Mouse Print

not sure how I got this link: http://oook.info/nsfaces/vernacular.html  but it did get me here: MUSEUM OF VERNACULAR PHOTOGRAPHY which is kind of weird but cool.

Very Funny Ads

We Feel Fine / by Jonathan Harris and Sep Kamvar 

Change.org

 Adtunes.com > Find Music from TV Commercials, Film Trailer Music, TV Show Soundtracks, Video Game Music, Film Soundtracks and...

Television Reviews - TV Shows & TV Reviews - TV Series Recaps & Reviews | TWoP

Become an EX

Quick & Simple

The Freecycle Network

ManBabies.com - DAD? weird.......

BBC - Languages - Homepage

Remember The Milk: Online to do list and task management

The Mutopia Project

Visions of Earth 2008 Photo Gallery - National Geographic Magazine  great photos!

Healthy Living Organic Shirts, Totes & Yoga Bags: FoodTee Market  yeah, like I want to wear the food I hate.....

Because a lot can happen between 9 and 5. | trueofficeconfessions.com

The Fast Food Explorer do you really want to know?

Health Insurance, Medical Insurance, Individual Health Insurance Quotes

Online shopping for brand names at discounted prices. Duvet covers, sheets, shoes, handbags & more; find the best bargains at...

DealCatcher: Free Online Coupons Dell, Amazon, Best Buy, Overstock

Discount Coupons | On-line Coupons | Promotional Codes from Staples.com, Buy.com, Overstock.com,

Old Fashioned Candy, Nostalgic, Retro & Old Time Candies & Grocery: Hometown Favorites

Google Product Search check it out

NexTag - Compare Prices Before You Buy

Going Green - Environmental Issues and Global Warming News - Green Living Tips

Get Organized - Organizing Tips and Ideas to help you get organized now.

Gift of the Month Clubs, Monthly Wine Club, Beer Club, Chocolate, Coffee, Fruit and more.  check out that list of clubs! whew....

Downtown Memphis Hotels & Accommodations in Downtown Memphis Tennessee - The Peabody Memphis you want to see the ducks....you know you do....

FakeChecks.org 

 

Wednesday.

 

First off I have a few new entries over here:  Forever Forward  For those of you that don't know that is where I try to post emails that get forwarded to me that I like but hate to keep your inboxes cluttered with them.   Sometimes I add to that journal a lot, sometimes I just about forget its there.  I have the comments turned off there because I didn't want anyone to feel they had to leave a comment.

I sweet talked my dad into taking my car yesterday to have the oil changed (it had been forever and a day since it had been changed), and dad noticed something a little wrong with my car.  Seems something about the brakes was warped and some bearrings needed something, ect......I have no clear idea what I am talking about.  But $250.00 later I have my car back.  Oh!  Had to stop and buy a new battery for it also.

Not much else to say.  I'm trying to get around to reading everyone's journals again.  Oh, I just saw that Chuck of Dribble by Chuck Ferris has passed away.  A family member has posted a couple of entries.  You may want to go by and let them know you are thinging of them.  Dribble by Chuck Ferris

Talk to ya later,

Kathy

Tags: forever forward, forwarded emails, car, oil change, brakes,

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Hello Again

This little hamster has nothing to do with anything.  I just thought it was cute.

Went by mom's grave today.  There was this little butterfly flying all over and around it.  Of course I know it was just a butterfly and it just happened to be there.......but I would like to think it was some kind of sign.  Silly me.

Not much of anything going on around here.  Years back I used to scrapbook (and I really want to get back into it) and make cards but some how I stopped doing it.  Anyway I have tons of scrapbooking stuff all over my house so I have been trying to get everything in one place and packed up all nice and neat.  My house will look some cleaner and if I do decide to start back at least everything will be in one place.

Slowly but surely I am trying to clean my clutter and get rid of things I don't need.  I also am still slowly going through mom's things at dad's house.  Some days it is easy going other days I just can't get rid of any of her things.

Looks like a storm coming up so I had better get off line.

Take care,

Kathy

 

Tags: mom's grave, scrapbooking, clutter, getting rid of stuff

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Another hot summer day here in North Carolina.  It has been so long since I added any graphics to my journal that I can't believe how much editing and adding to journals has changed!  And if you compare it to the begining of J-land (about 5 years ago) it has REALLY seen improvement.

The deal still may go through with selling my aunt's house.  I sure hope so.  It is the last (I hope the last) legal thing left of my aunt's stuff (and therefore my mom's stuff). 

I have been buying lots of PC games.  I have more than I can play (in years probably), but I am addicted to the buying I guess.  Depression brings out the shopper in me.  When mom was sick I spent over $400 at amazon.com.  Whew!  I had to take money out of my savings account to pay off Visa.

I am doing better about spending money.  This has happened before (though I haven't used my credit card like this before) so I know it will pass.

I am struggling to remember to test my blood everyday.  Something as a diabetic I need to be doing!  I was doing twice a day but a few months back the doctor said I could do it once a day.  I was doing pretty good and the sicker mom got and when she passed blood testing was the furtherest thing from my mind.

Tags: journal editing, spending money, pc games, diabetic, blood testing,

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A New Start

I don't really understand why but I have felt like the time has come to close my other journal and start a new one.  Maybe it has to do with mom passing, maybe its something else.  I just don't know.  So unless something changes this is my new place.

Under the title of my journal I put a quote that I recently came across.  My cats have a calming effect on me (except when Maggie is hungry :) ) I would love to be able to relax the way they do.  To not (or so it seems) a worry in the world.  To know that someone loves me and will take care of me.

I am going through another low point in my continuing saga of being depressed.  Yeah I have a shrink and have been clinically depressed for years.  I will survive.  I will shuffle along until better days come my way.

I do feel that something has changed in me.  I don't feel like I am the same person I was a year ago.

I will get links up in the side columns sometime.

Kathy

Tags: new journal, closing old journal, depression, mom died, cats